I doubted that he would ever notice me, I was so used to being in the shadow of my girlfriends that everyone seemed to fancy and he wouldn’t even ta...lk to me most days. The dreams that impaired my sleep at night didn’t help either. They felt so real. Too real. I felt like the dirtiest slut waking up every morning with panties soaked from the imaginary fucking in every position and place that I would get 3 or 4 nights in a week. If this was what he did to me in my dreams what the hell would he do. "Hop up, Tommy and sit still."I found myself sitting in a tall chair. A pretty lady in a dark smock came around and started talking about skin tones and colors with my mom. The woman was applying makeup to my skin and she and my mom were nodding together.When she finally turned a mirror my way, I was looking at the face of a teen girl. I had on mascara and shadow, but only enough to accent my blue eyes. I had on a real light coat of foundation, blush, lipliner and gloss. Nothing seemed out of. "FUCKING HELL, IT'S FREEZING" I yelled as the icy cold water cascaded over us both."MUM, TURN IT OFF, FOR GOD'S SAKE!"But she didn't, she wrapped both arms round me and used strength I didn't know she had to hold me in place under the freezing spray.Eventually, I stopped struggling and as my head seemed to clear, I was able to stand up unaided."Go and get dry mum," I said and reached for the mouthwash, I even cleaned my teeth under the shower, and ten minutes later I stepped out almost. She is pretty. I like looking at her. There is someshame in admitting that. She wants to win, that girl in the mirror. Witha little more confidence, she just might do better than I expect.Janine stands behind me, and we look into the mirror together. I'm hercreation."Confidence, Kat," she says. "I want you radiate confidence."She has started calling me Kat, which considering what I'm wearing, Kipdoesn't seem to make much sense."I'm terrified," I say."Kip might be scared, but Kat is beautiful.