You wanted my advice. I gave it to you. I’m sorry you feel as though you wasted your time. I think I gave you sound advice. It may not have been wha...t you wanted to hear. But I honestly believe you need to come to terms with where you are going to live on your own. I said what I did concerning staying in the neighborhood because you could be a leader for this neighborhood. I think you have the makings of a man of destiny. You will probably be successful in the future, no matter where you. Some had underwear on and a few were nude. One man said “Hey why not join us.”Jane said “well maybe later” and we left. We walked to another room and knocked, someone yelled for us to come in.We entered to find more couples that were sitting around in all stages of undress. Some were kissing, some touching and the others watching. We went in and sat down on one of the beds. Someone got us a drink a few welcomed us and we chit chatted while the action continued around us. The talk turned to. .. and I'm not planning to... I'm not that way"... and while you'restill stammering around... for another... even better answer... thesecond one is saying something else to you... "wail den.. Ceily... datmus' mean... dat yew steel uhh virgin... jest lack in dat movie...'Color Purple'"... and then before you can respond... He's asking you...another teensie wensie... tiny question... as the bad news... just keepson coming... asking you... "wail... iffen yew ain't nevuh been fucked...den yew evuh. I need time to get used to the idea. Your friendship is too important to me to screw up. Can I please just use one of the other rooms for awhile? I'm not saying no. I just need some time to think."Josh was clearly unhappy. He studied me for a minute, hurt lurking in his eyes, before replying."All right, Lindsey. We'll do it your way. Take all the time you need, but you are going to have to come to me. You know how I feel. The next move is yours."Jen and I spent the next few evenings painting my.