I went back to the diary. I had squirrels, big ones, in my gut. I also had a hard-on in my pants. I turned to the previous page. It had today's date o...n it.God, it began, I can't believe what I saw!My hands were shaking so hard the diary fell to the table. I stared at it as though it was a live grenade. In fact, I felt pretty much the same way I'd felt back in basic training when we'd done live grenade practice. That afternoon my hands were sweating so bad I could barely hang on to the thing,. As I watched, Mandy began touching the other girl all over her body--they were both stark naked and Beverly seemed rather passive as Mandy kissed each of her breasts, then began kissing her stomach... and then she... then she..." and her voice broke suddenly as she related the scene to the analyst."I believe I understand--did you confront them?" Oh, heavens no!" she exclaimed, "It was bad enough just seeing them like that. I went back into the house and poured myself a stiff drink." You. .. ," a gesture from then on that Maggie outwardly allowed with a smile but secretly welcomed). However, for the years since they last toured and having settled surely and amiably into the "Hey, didn't you used to be... ?" genre of obscurity, Maggie had been of the disturbing certainty that she harbored a lust for her brother that was unsettlingly sexual, far more than mere familial possessiveness. And the long evenings spent together in his apartment - now and then, at first, and each party. Then we started watching the movie I did not want to go fast and spoil the mood. This time she came forward and gave me a kiss on my cheek and said thanks for the movie.At around 2 the movie got over and we came out. I asked for lunch which she agreed we went to cream center and had lunch. She said shall we go home now I said if she has no plans then can we go for a drive and spend the day out. She said she is fine. I took her for shopping. She was trying kurtis. I said she should wear western.