After that happened, for the next few weeks, I thought I was one sexy hot mama. I wanted, no, to be honest, I couldn't wait to try out what Cecil had ...shown me on some unsuspecting boy. I was thinking then that I would like to do those things with older boys; those boys in my class didn't seem like much after Cecil. But I liked younger boys too, 'cause I could control them." Tom, I was so full of bullshit. I knew, though I didn't want to admit it to myself, that I had gone way past the line for. When he showed me what it felt like to be beautiful and what it meant. I couldn’t see it before, not on my own but I do now. Because he loved me, I can finally love myself.The sharp brown eyes soften, then freeze, hardening once more as I realise that I’m doing exactly what I feared I would. And I’m not even near him yet!I yank the comb roughly through my hair again, sharp, jagged strokes which rip out a few strands. Furious at myself, and at him and at this stupid comb I slam it against the. “It’s not that bad once you get wet.”Mandy stripped out of her uniform tunic and tossed it in my direction.“You catch me, and you can have me,” she playfully boasted, as she pinched her hardened nipples.“Me too,” Brandy replied, stripping out her uniform tunic and tossing it on to the beach beyond the headway of the surf.Both Brandy and Mandy were very drunk. I watched as they headed back into the surf, sans tops and only sporting their panties.“Oh my God!” I heard Mandy call out, “My panties,. With no fresh news I began to dress for the evening. Mum hadsaid we would have a light dinner and a couple of drinks which was finewith me. Choosing some fresh lingerie I dressed and sat down to apply mymake up, Mum had taught me well and soon a freshly made up little foxlooked back at me from the mirror. I scanned my wardrobe all of whichwas off course new to me I choose a wine silk fitted blouse flared atthe bottom but gathered in to the torso and bust area. I adjusted thecollar and pulled it.