"I wouldn't duck a football team with baseball bats, but YOU'RE SCARY!"Nate blinked. "Mama?" I axed him to help me check an' see if the equipment work...s," Tabitha amplified. She eyed Paul, sighing. "An' he got all shy. Cute ain't he?" Ain't it a little early?" Nate asked."Mebbe," his mother shrugged, "mebbe not. Dunno 'til ya try..." Fact was, with the possible exception of her 'money maker', Tabitha was feeling better than she had in years -- and she was bored to tears... Shrugging, she turned. Todd broke upwith me. He said he wasn't ready to be a father and he wasn't sure Iwasready to be a mother, and he thought we should give him up foradoption." That 'we' sounds encouraging." We didn't break up until later. I said I would think about it, but Ididn't like the idea, and the further along I got the worse I liked it.And when I told Todd I wasn't going to give him up (I knew he was aboy by then), he said I could raise him by myself if I wanted, but ifI didn't want his advice, I didn't. No more sounds. No more pictures. Just a dead, lifeless screen. A suitable metaphor for the state of my heart, my life and my marriage. Dark, empty and lifeless.Giving in to my temper, I threw my phone hard against the wall. Hurling it as hard as I could. Instantly regretting it, the phone my own link, however slender, with Jill and the faintest of hopes that I could somehow rescue my marriage from Chris' designs on my wife.Looking down at the shattered device, I knew there was no chance of. Next day when I saw him he gave me the sordid details how she sucked his cock before fucking her,well I got to thinking if he can fuck her so can I, so a few weeks later she was out again with Gail same kind of night except my mate James was talking to a girl he fancied for year so I said go with her if you want so he did that left me with Anne and Gail talking always end up talking about sex or there about she wasn’t as pissed this week Gail seem to be more interested this week chatting with.