I walked over to Kelly and kicked her lightly. "C'mon, we got an appointment." We do?" Yep, get dressed. My mom will be here any minute."Kelly looked ...confused. So did the other girls, but she ran down to the locker room and came back a couple of minutes later wearing jeans over her leotard and tennis shoes without socks. I'd already told Tami and Miss Calloway that I thought we'd be back in an hour.Mom was waiting, and the two of us piled in the back of her van. I think she was looking forward. Kuch hi der me uska poora lund meri chut me ghus gaya or fir wo halke halke dhake lagane laga. Dhake lagne suru hote hi mera dard kam hona suru ho gaya to usne apna hath mere muh se hata diya, ab mujhe halka halka dard ho raha tha per maja bhi bohot aa raha tha, Dhire dhire uske dhako ki speed tez hoti ja rahi thi or meri choot se pooch pooch ki awaj aa rahi thi, ab wo bohot hi tez dhake lagane laga jisse har dhake ke sath mere muh se aaahhhh aaahh ki awaj nikalne lagi, or fir achanak se usne. It wasn't built forgrown-ups and I had to squeeze my bum into the space.Had I painted them that colour this morning?I was sure I hadn't but what other explanation could there be?I felt so confused then as I looked at them again the colour faded.It didn't make sense. Perhaps I was just tiredLife was just so difficult sometimes. I looked at the picture of JennaJones again, whoever she was. She had it easy.I imagined what it would be like to be her, coming in here for myinitial interview with.... Dr. Reed didn't know what to say. He tried to say somethingbut swallowed his thoughts. He looked at Lena for a few seconds andthen looked back at me. "Well, it is your decision. And if you say itis final, it is final then. But, out of duty, I must give you allinformation that you need to know. Otherwise, my conscious will not beclear."I felt bad about how I reacted earlier. He seemed genuine, nice andextremely polite. "Ok, I am listening, but I doubt any kind ofinformation could change my.