She didnt let him get too far with her because she said she was saving herself for marriage, but he did get to cop a feel of her bra-covered tit. He t...old me it was nice to feel a boob bigger than his sisters little cups. Ann never touched him, but she let him jack off on her on the side of shed in our backyard. I got to watch from the bedroom window as he coated her cotton panties with his pearly white cum. Ann leaned against the shed and held up her dress in front. Eric told me he would have. I don't know what to think, Jackie ... have you talked to him, too?"No ... I cannot reach out to him yet. I don't know why. But I can watch and I can show you, too."What should I do..."I think you know."No," I stated weakly, "no, I don't."He'll be home soon. You could give him a gift."A gift?"Go to him in the night. He wants you, Penelope. He needs you to teach him to be a good lover. Kira deserves her first time to be wonderful. Not like yours with a boy."Teach him... ? But ... what about. I figured if she was planning on staying the whole weekend with me I might as well let her sleep. I got to the boat and set up all my equipment and got ready for the dive. Four hours of sight seeing and relaxation. As much as I loved being in the water and seeing the beautiful sights I still wanted to get back to Syn as much as possible.I just couldn’t get that song out of my head; I was singing it to my self on the boat all the way back to shore. I quickly stopped at a dive shop and got my. My sister Janelle, and brother-in-law, Beau, took the kids for the summer. I think it's better this way. They should be away from my madness, and have some fun swimming and goofing around in the White River. It's a great way to spend the summer. I'm hoping that it helps them to forget for a while that they've lost their mom and feel as if they are just on vacation.They're pretty independent and stay busy all the time, so I know they are okay. They'll call me if they need too.Journal Entry.