" Thank you. I have only one question, if I may." Certainly." Is the appointment renewable; or will I be searching for a post next May?" The answer is... quite complex, I'm afraid. If your performance is satisfactory, the appointment might be renewed for another six month. It might be renewed for a year. Or it might be – uh – converted to a permanent post. However, all of this is subject to available funding." Of course. Understanding all that, I accept the provisional offer and look forward to. Those were my terms, firm though unspoken, and I was going to have to accept them.I had put considerable thought into the problem of Anita. Though I had ended my relationship with her and though my second talk with her seemed to have brought this fact home to her, I still felt a considerable amount of guilt. Things were not right with Anita. She had been pulled from her destiny because of me. And because she had been pulled from her destiny, her children had been pulled from theirs. They were. She was only 56 years old but I was happy to drive her back and fourth to church. We became pretty good friends. I had met her husband and he seemed to me to a huge asshole. Jill had some horses which help keep in her good shape. And she always dressed very nice. I looked forward to seeing her. One Sunday I picked her up and she was not in a good mood, seemed that she was having trouble with her husband. It was snowing pretty hard and she was not talkative. As soon as church was over we left.. I didn’t immediately realize that she was clamping her legs shut around the shift lever. Jessie had special permission to ride home with me after away football games. The band director would sit in my truck after our band performed at halftime and smoke. The entire band knew he did it and that is why Jessie was allowed to change into her street clothes and ride home with me. We were riding home from an away game listening to the radio and Jessie was snuggled up close. I was fondling her.