I didn't think it was necessary to bring it up, if she wanted to tell me, she would and besides, that was a couple years before. I got my toys and mir...ror off the coffee table, and quickly put my red silk baby doll night gown on under my robe, and slipped on the matching panties. I was cleaning up the kitchen when I heard her car in front of the building. I invited her in, and told her to take a seat. I asked her if she wanted a drink, and she agreed. I got a glass out, and opened up the freezer. What I think is the perfect solution to my problems.”“But what happens if you are killed in the line of duty? What happens to Jason?”“If I had a clerical job and died it would be tough going for Jason. You know as well as I do that the department has programs in place to take care of children of fallen officers. He would receive a generous sum from the city and police department plus money from separate insurance I have signed up for. There are college tuition grants for children of slain. B. Whatever’s best for you. I’ll have that Grinder out in a bit.”I walked slowly over to my table, feeling like I was wading through lukewarm water. Colorful as the scenery outside was and as delightful as I'd found Enrique, in more ways than his thoughtful notes on my daily twenty-ounce Grinder, everything looked gray to me. My college education told me this was depression. Fully aware of the dangers of self-diagnosis, I tried to avoid that conclusion, but lately, it just hadn't seemed worth. My attitude had changed out the blue. I walked to the door and turned the knob. When I walked in they was nowhere to be found. I didn't call out or anything I just figured they was out in the back yard. So all of a sudden I hear a moan, I stood still to see if I was going to hear it again. I did! I was puzzled cause that was the way Eddie would moan out. I walked slowly toward the bedroom door. I peaked in to find Eddie and Trell! Eddie was at the edge of the bed, and Trell was on top of him.