I sighed before saying, "Why don't we go up to my room and we can catch up." She nodded and we got up from our barstools, left the restaurant and boa...rded the elevator."So are you going to answer my question?" she asked. "I just don't have time for a real relationship and I can't deal with the lonliness." She nodded again. "I understand." As we rode up the elevator I assessed this awkward situation. I couldn't get past the fact that when Megan reached her middle teens she really blossomed. I know the girls look up to her like a mother; even Amy who's four years older than her, so it's not just me.It also means I feel guilt free about our relationship, even if I can't really work out why she'd love me in return, let alone want sex with me.With Amy the situation we've fallen into is understandable. Having come from an abusive situation to have someone who is kind to you and actually looks out for and supports you, let alone gives you good sex, could be compelling. But of course,. Plus through the years, the studio I go to has seen different waves of people go through. Usually there is a huge group of young kids that always stay, but the adults fluctuate. Lately there has been a larger number of women training right now then men. Probably has to do with my instructors workout classes are all women which some filter into the martial arts classes.I try to train with just the men in the studio, but a lot of the time, the guys do not always get to the classes so I am stuck. One of the most important qualities I fell in love with her was her love and compassion for other people. She has always loved guys since an early age, and I know that probably sounds weird, but she was shy in some ways, but always still loved guys. In particular, she has liked guys who were career oriented and or professional. Also, if you are a guy who is confident, but humble, funny, and loves sex, that kind of makes her happy.We have been married for almost 10 years, she has been with a.