What he might be doing right now and constantly wondering if he is thinking of me at all. If he even cares about me to begin with? Etc, etc, etc. Inse...rt standard sadness shit here, blah... As you know, I struggle with trying to distract myself with other tasks or activities that might help take my mind off how unworthy I feel - and how much wine I've consumed in recent months - but nothing is helping. I can't even find someone who is willing to hold me for longer than a few hours, without it. The pledge mother said, "There are three stages to the initiation. Every girl has to do Stage 1. Then, you pick two cards to determine if you go to stage two or three. If you want us to stop, you will say Dentist. We will stop but we’ll never contact you again."A sister got a poster board with slits in it. In the slits were handmade cards. I picked two cards. The pledge mother gave them to the sisters at the computer. They began to whisper and type on the PC.Pledge mother said, “OK stage one.. It was no-one she’d heard before. His words drew her attention to the tightness across her shoulders and chest and she realised her arms were tied stiffly off to each side. Odd that she hadn’t noticed earlier. Her legs were parted, toes on the floor, body leaning forwards. She tried to move her feet together, but something strong was secured between them preventing her from closing her legs. It was at that point she realised she was naked. A rush of adrenaline, of terror chased away the. Helen had been pretty shocked and upset by the whole thing but the warm support she got from her mothers and Chris and her quick imprinting on Melissa was getting her past that. Chris was glad to see that it was helping Melissa adjust too.Deb was overjoyed with her elegant new body and was going a bit crazy with the sudden blooming of her sex life. She was constantly designing erotic costumes and underwear to provoke him and suggesting every experimental position she could find in research and.