.. I found the video again... Just thought... I'll just watch it.. Jerk off later...I had to look... I watched the video... Looking in the mirror ever...y couple seconds at first... Then getting lost in her eyes slowly... I watched it again.. I stopped looking in the mirror .. I got more aroused... Suddenly rock hard... Suddenly pinching it... I couldn't help myself..It had been fifteen minutes already... I thought I'll just... Rub it a little.I pulled it out... I couldn't help it... I saw her in. .. still don't get it." She's convinced she's absolutely worthless. She has to put on this big happy 'I'm wonderful' front, and she skips from superficial relationship to superficial relationship so that no-one 'works it out'." You think?" Hell yeah. Look at the people she's dated so far — Tony, Brendon Mallory, that girl from her Ethics class with the intellect of a toadstool." So how does Hope fit into this?" Ah, see, that's where things start to go wrong for her. She didn't pick Hope, Hope. Becky felt like an animal in a trap, ‘No, oh, no… I… can’t… mustn’t… answer… must… fight it… ‘ What she said was, ‘Different things… sometimes it’s really great sex I had. Sometimes, I imagine that a bunch of young boys are peeking through my window watching me, or even… for some reason… my cousin Terri’s breasts pop into my mind. Isn’t that strange?’ ‘OH, MY GOD, NO, THIS HAS TO STOP, I CAN’T TALK ABOUT ALL THIS, NOOOO!!!’ she couldn’t believe it, she’d never told anyone about that. ‘Well its. You deserve much better, and I will prove to you that I have grown wiser from my mistakes. You are my most valuable treasure, and I will never let you go for anybody."He went back to raining kisses all over the back of my neck, and soon after, I felt his hands scoop me up and place me on his lap. His fingers roamed my whole body, vulnerable to his touch, as it always was. His lips pecked my forehead, then my cheeks, and soon they made their way to mine. He gently probed my mouth open with his.