Yet even through the sadness and future longing you held joy, giddiness even, at the prospect of him holding you in his arms, your head rested firmly ...into his chest as you squeezed him with a bear hug standing there in the bus terminal. But you waited, unable to sleep, your head pressed to the cold glass; the humming of the bus' engine as a soft reminder that time would pass ever so slowly.Friday morning found you waking up from dreams of love and romance to the smell of fresh bacon sizzling. "I smiled crookedly. "I wouldn't want to think that any of you made noises that were not real or that were forced through a sense of duty. I am only an average man."Anna said, "No average man could or would have come for us and been successful. Also, I have seen you swimming. You are not average." She grinned and both the other two grinned with her.For breakfast, we finished off our supper from the night before. There was a nice creek less than a hundred feet away. When I finished eating, I. .."Daaaankeee", rief ich und erschreckte gleich nochmal. Meine Stimme h?rtesich an als h?tte ich eine Kehlkopfentz?ndung.Wird ja immer besser, Christoph.Mein Blick fiel auf die beiden obserten Briefe, der eine von der Telekomund der andere von meinen ehemaligen Arbeitsgebern.Den riss ich zuerst auf. sie strich mir meine langen schwarzen haare ausdem gesicht um besser gelesen zu k?nnen. Der Brief beinhaltete meineAbfindung. Einen Check mit 10000 Euro Wert. 30 bevorstehende JahreArbeitslosigkeit. And what do you know: the plastic did not melt and I had hot tea. Sure I don't think I can use it endlessly, but for now it helped.I rested a bit and played out scenarios for the rest of the travel. Though the situation was dire, I felt one with nature. It was a beautiful day, birds were singing, I had seen deer. I felt relaxed and I felt The Urge. The Urge was something that came to me easily and the past four months I could do something about it immediately so I was conditioned to satisfy.