”“Yeah, I know. I try to tell myself that, but things aren’t getting better without it. Of the few things that made me happy, getting high was a... heavy loss. He really carried the team.” He gave a bitter laugh. “Maybe it ruined my life, maybe my life was already ruined.”“That just sounds like an excuse to me.”“Yeah, it probably is.”“Well?”“Well what?”“It’s an excuse, but maybe it’s a good excuse. I can’t know if you don’t tell me. Go on, try to convince me that you needed it.”“What, you want to. ....A Few weeks back My Mum and Dad went to work early around 6 in the morningAbout 7 o'clock my alarm rang for college but I was so tired I decided to have the day off. I went back to sleep for a few hours then got up and had a shower and got ready .I sat in my room playing on my x box for a while and at about 1 o'clock in the afternoon I heard a car pull onto the driveway.I jumped up to my window and had a look , it was a grey audi Q7 , I noticed my mum in the passenger seat as it pulled up .. . unless I did things for them." What things, Lazeez?" I... I had... to use my tongue on them." What's wrong with that?" A man does not do that sort of thing. They worked to teach me how I was wrong. The lessons almost killed me. There were a great many women. I had to please all of them." Ah... so you were pleased by a lot of women and then to pay them back, you pleased them in return?" They were pleased some of the time before. They wanted it all the time later." He got closer and whispered,. We're going back next Wednesday." That's all he said until we got home.It was ten past midnight and as usual, I didn't have time to shower or clean up. I went straight to bed still reeking of sex.It was 6:32 and Ronnie was on top of me thrusting with short, quick strokes. It was time to wake up. Like most mornings, I didn't even have a chance to start enjoying it before he came and rolled off."Take a shower," was all he said before leaving. I sighed and got up. The water felt great on my skin.