Anything to help.” “Even thought you’ve finished, would you like to come over tomorrow? Let me made you dinner to thank you for all you’ve d...one.” “I’d be happy to.” The next day I called in sick to work, blamed it on a bug that was going around. Got dressed in clothes I would usually wear to go out on the pull, and made my way up to Bella’s home. I was happy I could help her out, there was also part of me that was hoping for more. When I got there she greeted me with a smile and. I was pissed off, because I'd told him to bring it to school Friday, and he'd forgot. I guess he realized that I was pissed so he told me to come by his house and pick up the game. He said he would leave the back door open and leave my game on the kitchen counter. I said ok, I figured that since I had nothing to do and he only lived about 4 blocks away, that I could use the walk to get out of the house and smoke a joint on the way. He said that he wouldn't get back home until around 1 am. He. I’m all alone and—’ ‘You may be but I’m not! Good God!’ He cracked up. ‘Relax, Ryan,’ he said when he could talk again. ‘I’m kidding. God, I thought all you musicians were supposed to be depraved and into all kinds of sexual things.’ ‘Yeah, well, think again.’ She huffed out a breath. ‘Keep that up and you won’t get any sex at all when I get back.’ ‘How about if I let you spank me as punishment?’ ‘What the hell is wrong with you?’ Ryan tried to sound angry but she was laughing, too. ‘Nothing,. Like there was lightning in the air waiting to strike."Do you love me?" he asked and there was a tremor in his voice, right at the end, and I wanted to catch it in my hands and hold it."Josh?" I couldn't answer him right away."Yeah?" I'm scared," I whispered and my tummy hurt and I touched it, poking it and looking down cause his eyes were too soft."Me too," Josh told me. "I'm scared of you." Yeah," I nodded. "It's like being afraid of God, sorta." I know," he was whispering too."What if you.