She smiled; I can expect more. I pulled down my T-shirt to cover my pressure in the trousers before reaching the kitchen. My aunt gave me towels and l...ed me to the bathroom. I was seeing my cousin, who was studying in a place very far from her home and staying in a hostel, after a long time. I noticed her bodily changes. She is no more that lean girl who was bathing with me in this bathroom. She now has some flesh all over her body. Breasts are small yet attractive. Buttocks exactly fit her. To maine kaha thik hai. To usne kaha ki parso raat mere ghar par sirf ammi hogi. Aur main tumhare cell par miss call karungi tum chat par aa jana. To maine kaha thik hai. Main parso ka intjar karne laga . do din do saal ke barabar lage. Khair intjar khatam hua aur vo raat aa gayi aur main miss call ka intjar karne laga. Raat ke karib 1:30 baje miss call. Main dhire se apni chat par pahuncha jahan par nargis pahle se wait kar rahi thi. To maine use jaate hi kiss karna suru kar diya. To wo boli. The water is getting low at several of the wagons again and we have had several of the women ask to get water from one of our extra barrels. We must find water tomorrow or the cattle will begin dying.There have been no further signs of the measles in either of the two wagons for the last seven days. I have given the people permission to join the rest of the wagon train. I have remained alone as much as possible today because of my depression. I didn't feel like continuing the unarmed combat. I squeezed a bunch into my hand and rubbed it on myhole, trembling with excitement. But I found as I tried toslide a finger in, most of the body wash diluted in thewater. I needed something else. I pulled the plug on thetub and stood there toweling off. Then I thought of thevaseline in the medicine cabinet. I grabbed it and stuckmy finger in. I stood there ready to do it, but not sure. Ihad one leg up on the tub side, and a huge glob vaselineon my finger not sure if I wanted to do this. I.