I assume you just end up with a broken chandelier?”Zoe rolled her eyes, as she often did at both of us. “So, she wanted to hold hands. And what di...d you do?”“Well, I did try a little. But, I feel so... I don’t know. Like I’m tied down to one person.”“You mean, like in a relationship?” Zoe asked.I grimaced slightly, but again had no answer.“Are you okay?” Zoe gently touched my shoulder and carefully examined my face with a slight look of concern.“Yeah. I probably knew at some level that it wasn’t. Die Türen schließen sich. Du schaust auf und unsere Blicke kreuzen sich abermals. Diesmal lächle ich und sehe ein kleines Lächeln auch über dein Gesicht huschen bevor du weiterläufst.Wenigstens ein Lächeln von dieser tollen Frau konnte ich ergattern denke ich bei mir. Jetzt ab ins Hotel duschen, vielleicht noch einen runterholen und dann endlich schlafen nach den paar Maaß die ich mir reingestellt habe.Ich liege in meinem Bett im Hotel starre die Decke an und grüble über die verpasste. I remembered what happened when we stepped off the plane. I didn’t cry, but I began to tremble. He pulled up the blanket and put it around me. I stopped shaking in a few minutes. Sasha left the room and returned with a cup of green tea. I let him put it in my hand. I brought it to my lips and took a sip. A feeling of calm spread inside me, like the warmth of the tea dissipating in my throat. I drank some more. ‘You were in rough shape last night. I wasn’t sure what to do.’ ‘I have absolutely. She had hoped they would indulge her fantasies, but what happened was they called her weird and strange and filthy. She didn't think she was strange or weird. She had read a great deal. She felt frustrated most of the time. She dreamed of finding herself a partner with the same hungers she suffered with, and thought that if she would make herself available at singles bars and so on, she might find a man. But that was only a might, a very big might. Donna didn't want to take such a chance on.