Chandler would always smoke almost two packs a day. He said it helped ease his conscience. He would hold me to his chest while he smoked, exhaling dir...ectly into my face. I shiver at the thought and I force back a cough. "I'm Ben, by the way." "Grace," I whisper, looking out the window as I see the town lights coming closer and closer into view. "Grace, what are you looking for? A gas station or a grocery store?" Ben asks. I frown and I shake my head, "Neither, somewhere to stay for the night.. ‘Part of me felt some jealousy, wondering if he liked eating you better maybe, but at the same time it made me incredibly horny.’ ‘Because it was Tom eating another woman’s pussy?’ Rosaria asked. ‘Maybe to a degree, but I think it was more just seeing it being done right in front of me like that, that and wishing it were me,’ she added, laughing. ‘So you find watching other people have sex exciting,’ Rosaria said, more a statement than a question. ‘That’s a huge change, improvement over your. Everything just made sense. We watched the movie, both of us content to just be together with our declarations and the indescribable warmth that goes with it. Neither of us ever touched the popcorn again, neither of us willing to let go to the security that went with just holding hands. As the credits inevitably ended, I felt a wave of disappointment, not because the movie was done, but because our first date, this small ripple of perfect time was ending. Real life was so much more complicated. I saw her for the first time on the evening news, a burnt and broken little girl, hugging a bloody torn stuffed tiger. Her dad's will left care and custody in my parent's hands, and I had a baby sister. We met in the intensive care ward. By sheer dumb luck the stuffed tiger I brought her was an exact match for the one the nurses had taken from her.It is hardwired into our brains to care for the young. The appeal of puppies and kittens is irresistable. Somehow, my parents were immune, but the.