"Look, I know you don't really know how my office works so I'll give you an overview. I'm not a cop. I don't investigate crimes." Do you sit in on the... Task Force meetings?" I cut in."I used to when I was an assistant," Elizabeth answered with a nod. "Since I'm in the big office I've passed those duties onto someone else." You have not worked with the Task Force since you were promoted?" I asked."Well, yeah," Elizabeth answered. "I mean, I set up the raid of Huntley's house with them but I don't. Taking in her beauty and trying very hard not to take out my anger and frustrations with Keri on her. Finally I simply said,"Not tonight ... Nor any night in the foreseeable future."Teresa looked at me as her anger seemed to ebb."Well since you're not busy, I guess you should come in then. We have some things to talk about."With that she looked past me at the cottage. Then she opened the door wider and allowed me to enter the warmth of her living room. I rubbed my arms as I stepped into a very. ’ I looked at it under my dim single light and suddenly felt like a schoolgirl again. Never mind the fact that I was thirty five and he was nineteen, and never mind the fact that there was no way I was ever going to call the number, I just felt … I don’t know … visible. I felt flushed again, but this time it wasn’t through embarrassment or awkwardness, it was from being noticed and, I suppose, appreciated. I hadn’t felt that way for a long, long time. ‘You’ve just made an old woman’s day,. Last night I awoke in a state of full blown terror and internal reality was absolutely bendy. Back in the day, I’ve done things they say make LSD look like bathwater in comparison and last night it was full speed ahead welcome to hell.Normally, I have for lack of a better words an anchor. I know which way is up so to speak. Not this time, I was drowning. None of my normal tricks like telling myself this is just a trip was working. I was losing my grip. I was scared I was going to start doing.