Who do they really hurt in the long run?Who is the chump?The one who loves fully, or the one who pretends, lies and cheats behind the other's back?Alw...ays searching for something they already have, if they only opened their hearts and minds. It takes courage to open yourself up, to be so vulnerable, while the closed, protected shield cools the heart, keeping the stoked flames from catching and igniting the all inclusive passion of body and soul.There is the fear that one day, you can come home. Peter had always wanted a Harley and this year his dream came true. They had saved for a long time and ordered their bike, a Harley-Davidson CVO Softail Convertible FLSTSE . Peter was in heaven and they started riding every day and hanging out at the local biker bars. They seemed to fit in perfectly with a biker club called the Cobras. Tracey said they were not wild like most people think of biker clubs. They had jobs and families like everyone else, they just liked to ride on the open road. Yes. Stian Elberd is perched and settled in this car of ours right next to me in the driver's stall, and when I gaze at him, he strikes me as being studious and reflective and cogitative. Ruminative and cogitative of what? I am not acquainted with that either."Stian," I whine and rumble out his name, swigging and swilling saliva down my throat as I do so. Uhmmnnn! My voice sounds to some degree craggy and rugged and two-fisted. Like I am in a gone-bad and embittered state and frame of mind. Am. I took my first trip in a stagecoach and on a train last month. John and I traveled to Moose Jaw Canada to visit my father and the Lakota that live in the area. James made a promise to Iron Buffalo that our son would learn about the Lakota and his ancestors. Will said he would take care of the ranch so John and I spent the summer with my people.The tribe had a welcoming ceremony for John. He stood so tall and proud as he was introduced to his people. I am so happy and sad at the same time. My.