I didn't want to think about what had happened to me in that room. I quietly said, "You don't need to hear about that. And I don't feel like talking a...bout it."She fought back more tears and said, "No. I don't want to hear about it. I am horrified that it happened. But you were raped. You need to talk about it. You can't bottle that up inside of you like you have bottled up your feelings about the way mom and dad have treated you. You'll go crazy. I can't have you going crazy. You're my big. The tuition was on 3rd floor which had a balcony in front where we used to study. I asked her to stay back and told her that we could do combined studies and due to my repeated request she decided to stay back.There was no one after some time. My thoughts were to attain her rather than studying after some time, I asked her how she felt during the kiss. I knew that she liked me from her actions first she did not respond later she told that it was okay. This gave me green signal to go furthur. I. Then I had to go back to the hostel in a few weeks. But in these weeks, we had become good friends. Very strangely, we exchanged landline numbers and used to talk a bit over the phone sometimes. But it was online chats most of the time.We were very open and shared very small things with each other. While in the hostel, I was fortunate to have internet in the college lab and we had this thing where we used to type out long replies and so did she. In those emails, we would tell about what. Besides, it's not like I'm going to some hotel room with somebody. They get a good look and I make sure they get to see what they want, but that's it. After my act, I get dressed and go home. The looks and whistles are all I want, all I need."The music started again and Mioki knew she would be next."I'm so new to this. I really don't know whether I can go through with it." You'll do fine honey. Just go out and dance. If you've never used the pole before, don't. You'll just look awkward. Each.