I really wanted to know how she was handling the day after. Did we need to get counseling for her on Friday? Killing someone affects everyone differen...tly. She had done it while defending herself and her friends, as well as her coworkers.I asked, "How are you feeling, and how did you sleep?" My hand is sore. I had to take the pain meds last night and again today. I was exhausted after the fight; I think because of the adrenalin rush. After the pain meds, I slept very well," she replied."How have. So I was all alone in there wandering around in my empty silent apartment that felt more like an isolated prison than a refuge. I thought of masturbation but I was feeling kind of guilty to be honest. Its been a few years since the last time I had such pleasure. I was living with my girlfriend for quite sometime so no need to do this and I was not fond of watching porn. Later this evening I was sitting in my living room browsing Instagram and while I was scrolling I came by a picture of my. She smiled and I let her walk in. I shut the door behind her and we began kissing. I moved my hand up under left breast. Barb grabbed my ass with both hands and squeezed. Then abruptly, she stopped and pulled away. "We need to talk...." Damn, I really didn't feel like it.I struggled to control my sexual desire to rip her clothes off as Barb sat on the couch next to me. "I like you," she started of in a shaky voice, " and the sex was wonderful but I have to know if this is just sex or something. They almost never encountered any, so it was easy for her to overlook the occaisian “N” bomb when he’d drop it.As she drifted off to sleep that night she lay on her mattress on the floor of her bedroom and wondered what her ex-husband would have to say about a black man helping her unpack the next day. She was pretty sure he’d hate it, which she liked. She was also pretty sure she didn’t know how she felt about it yet. She didn’t like that.Without any curtains yet on her windows, the morning.