" Jen, I really don't have anything to wear." Wear your jeans over. You know I have clothes in three sizes, just pick something from my skinny wardrob...e." Right." I agreed."Say you will come, it's for dinner. Helen is coming over to cook for me."Helen was hands down the best cook in town. She was so good that she picked who she wanted to cook for, and they were thrilled that she chose them. It had gotten to be a snob thing. I remembered Helen from back in the day. She was the mother of the. ."Oh, you fucking idiot..."Bell and Bella looked at her, startled. Shelly stood."You didn't use anything, did you, Lessa? I thought, I assumed, you two were smart. I thought you'd know enough to deal with this, because YOU HAVE TWO CABINETS FULL OF BIRTH CONTROL IN YOUR OFFICE!!!" Shelly slammed her fist onto the desk, Bella jumping off in shock. The two twins looked on with growing unease. "Gods, woman! We have eleven year olds doing this responsibly, and you can't be BOTHERED?!? Did nothing. Liesel was… Liesel. It wasn’t that hard to notice her. She wasn’t loud or anything, she just always said everything as if she were absolutely right. And not even in a bitchy way, not arrogant or haughty at all. Just firm, and… resolute. If Liesel was anything, she was resolute. Resolute, firm Liesel. Jesus, was she firm…. My mouth still waters when I think about her. She tasted like coconut — it was this lip gloss she used to wear, that she got in Jamaica or something. Well, that’s what she. I wanted us to all be a family – but you’ve been trying to force me to choose since you came back. Well, I’ve chosen. I choose Sierra. When you’re old, lying on your deathbed, and you’re alone with no one to hold your hand or listen to your final wishes, I hope you remember that you forced this, Fergus. You brought it on yourself.”Aedan kissed my forehead again, and then released me. He shoulders were slumped as though he carried the weight of the world on them, but he forced himself to stop,.