Then Lauralee said the hell with it and poured herself a drink. Out at parties with her husband, she had managed to nurse a weak drink most of the eve...ning, and only took two, at most. Now she didn't mind a jolt or three, to loosen things up; another surprise for Marshall.Oh lord, she thought; what a miserable, uptight woman she had been, slicking off all her little pat answers as to what was right and what was grievously wrong, and never imagining that she could be mistaken in anything. It was. Time was He understood a selfish thought and could discard it easily. He of all people recognized that as we age we cover our own self-interest with a fine disguising coat of delusion. Every act is self-orientated in some way, even if only as a means to gain pleasure or justification. Charity would never exist if it really pained, man was at heart always guilty of placing himself first and could not hope to shed those leopard spots unless a saint or imbecile. ‘The consequence of my method is. I pulled out of my sister-in-law, Miriam Lamont, just long enough to answer my cell. It was Lizzie, of all people. What the Devil did she want, anyway?“Lizzie?” I asked, knowing full well who it was from my caller ID.“Yes, that’s me. When are we gonna ... kiss and make up? This lover’s spat has gone on too long and I don’t even know why,” Lizzie whined and pouted now a bit over the speaker phone.“You’re kidding me, right?” I asked Lizzie as I plowed Miriam a couple more strokes.“No, why? What. She urinated again.The total darkness began to feel solid, as if she would be able to touch it with her hands, were they free of their restraints. The air felt black, tasted dark on her tongue. Her boyfriend came in to the room, and chastised her for soiling herself, which made her cry. He eventually faded, and her psychology instructor was there... he held her hand, but too tightly so that it hurt. She tried to talk to him but he ignored her and eventually left... she realized she was.