. I couldn't look back because Billie had her hands on my head and she was saying stuff egging the guys on ... things like " fuck her hard boys ... sh...e wants it bad. " and you know, I did.I didn't think I was such a slut, but I am. I actually lifted my head and shouted" Yeah, Do it ... FUCK ME " ... and they did.I got gang-banged and I loved it; I only wish I had been sober enough to fully appreciate it. They must have lifted me up or helped me up because I ended up on Andy's bed. I'm pretty. ‘For this you must be punished. Keep wanking your dick, and I am going to sit behind you, fondling my big tits. And you can’t look! If you dare turn around, I move out, and we never do this again.’And so that’s how it went for a week or so. I so desperately wanted to turn and glance at those tits, especially when she started masturbating herself some days in. But I loved her watching me so much, I couldn’t bare to do it. By week 2, she made it more. Me sofe par so raha thha, woh aaker side me beth gayi, muze haath lagakar dekha aur boli” tumhara bukhar abhi thoda kaam lag raha hain..woh mere side me baith ke thande pani ki paatiya sar par badadl rahi thi, woh boli’ khana khalo” maine kaha thodi der baad, usne us time night dress hi pehna tha, me uski godi me sar rakhke sona laga. Woh thodi zijak gayi, ruk gayi, lekin me bimar hu sochke firse patti badlane lagi, srilanka ki batting khatam huyi to maine channel badla aur movie laga di, me. An almost nauseated feeling washedover me.'Was it right for me to do those things last night?' I wondered as Iwalked into school. I drifted through my classes, barely paying attentionto any of them. Almost too soon, it was final hour. Gym time.I began undressing when I walked in, throwing my shirt on the floor. I changed quickly, only looking to myself, avoiding all the other boys as ifsomehow they could know what me and Davy had done. It was dodgeball day, which is usually a good thing since.