"Hey! Not fair!" Kris cried, clutching her forearms to her breasts, but I managed to pull the top off her anyway. I held the small bit of fabric over... my head. Kris jumped for it. Her small breasts bounced up out of the water, and rubbed against my chest. But I was taller than she was, and she couldn't reach. Laughing, I tossed it towards the dock, but missed. In retribution, Kris dove under the water, and yanked my shorts from my ankles, nearly knocking me over. Before she came up, she paused. The jealousy seems to be slipping away from us. Fading a bit, as if it were a drug that we’ve taken for years and now we’re weaning ourselves off it. Or just maturing. Or our relationship fundamentally changing as we realize that we really are safe from any danger of separation. Maybe part of why we don’t want to be separated now is that we want any ... experimentation with that to be on our terms, not because we got lonely and strayed. In the past, it would have been fear of losing each other. Main kese apne aap ko aur apne hatho ko control kar rha tha, ye sirf aur sirf mujhe hi pata hai. Uski mummy ke aage Charu kuch bhi nhi thi. Uski mummy roop ki devi thi. Wo karib 37 ya 39 saal ki hogi, par is umar me wo itni jyada khoobsurat thi.Sach kehun toh mere pass uski khoobsurati batane ke liye word kam pad jayegen. Main apni life me unse khoobsurat aurat kabhi nhi dekhi thi. Unki ankhen Charu se kafi badi aur nashe se bhari hui thi. Unki nose ek dam tikhi aur halki si lambi. Jise dekhte. Right then,I knew I was not being true to myself with how I ended it with Austin. Idid not treat my ex how I wanted to be treated. I ended a specialrelationship over something trivial.I told Shawn, even with us having a great time there would be no seconddate. I told him the truth. I still had feelings for my ex and wanted tosee if he would take me back. Like I said Shawn is a great guy and heunderstood. It was so sweet of him to say that Austin would be a foolnot to take me back and my ex.