Part of what happened to me was he justified his attacks on me because ofmy feminine side. He made me so afraid of my desire to be female that iburied... it until I was approaching puberty. Then the sense of wrongness,the horrible feeling that somehow, I was going in the wrong directionbecame overwhelming. But I kept it hidden as best as I could.Then I became a Christian. This made my conflict even stronger, as I wasinducted into a conservative branch of the faith, and felt sure that myneed for. "I bet she's got a cute shaved one!" "Playing Alexis will be a new member. Lets give him a big round of applause!" Go make her cry!" hisses Kay as you move towards the stage. The audience claps appreciatively for you. Alexis stands on the stage, arms folded, appraising you with a fairly mocking look.You climb onto the stage and the room falls into an expectant hush once more. You take your seat on the stool, and Alexis sits opposite you, smiling and leaning forward slightly. God, that cleavage. This other company will probably put you in the service department, they don't have R&D, and I think you would get bored doing the same thing day after day. Promise me you won't take this offer until I can give you ours next week." Thanks, Tom, I don't know what to say. I didn't think I was doing that well. I won't give them an answer until I hear from you."With that I shook his hand and got up to leave."What is happening at your place Aaron? Justine was over here earlier and she seemed to be a. If I can'tparticipate, at least I can study their routine. Maybe one day they'lllet me in." You really aren't going to give up on this, huh?" Jane let out a sigh. "Well, here, I got ahold of these for you. Just take one an hour beforethey begin practice and slip in to this outfit."She handed me a bottle of pills and an outfit that looked just like themulti-colored cheerleading practice leotard. I gave her a funny look andshe smiled back."I worked something out for you. Just trust me."I.