I look at myself in themirror and the tie reminds me of a dog collar. Strangely enough, I findthis thought exciting. The last part of the ensemble is ...the wide, blackleather belt that's been lying on the bed. It fits through black loops atthe waist and like the ones around the collar, once the item is in place,you cannot see the loops. My mother pulls the three inch wide belt tightaround my waist and buckles it making my tiny waist look even morediminutive. She stands me up, looks me up and. These guys came closer and started abusing me and they asked me to arrange to 2 lambs and till then they will keep me as ransom. I had no choice so I made calls to a couple of my friends and they promised to arrange cash but in 2 hours.The time was almost 2 pm and it was really hot outside. The 3 beggars took me to the spot where they were staying.The spot was under a flyover bridge. This spot was covered by a flyover from one side and had fences on both sides. The fourth side was open and it. I use to have a room full of books. I had books from all of the greatgenerals and leaders of the past. I had both copies of Rommel's'Infantrie greift', the original version publishED by the third Reichin German and a newer copy printed in America in English. I also hadAdolf Hitler's 'Mein Kampf in original German and English. I had twocopies of the original German version, one published in 1925 after hewas paroled from Landsberg prison, the second volume in 1926.I learned German and loved the. " I choke back sometears. I grab a tissue and attack my eyes. I cough loudly and sob.We ride home in silence. Every so often, Mom looks over at me. I close myeyes and lean forward to lay my head and arms on the dashboard. After afew minutes, I hear her click the garage door opener. We coast out of thepublic eye and into the garage.The garage doors rattles downwards into place and I'm blissfully hiddenfrom prying eyes again. I move quickly into the house but Mom breaks mystride with my.