I couldn't cry. Not in front of him.One rolled down my cheek, and I tried to sweep it away. But before I could, he saw it. "It's okay Sophie. I unders...tand," and I knew he did.I leaned against him, and felt like bawling my eyes out for days. He rubbed my arm, and then my hair."You're the only person who does." Understand you?" he asked, his chin on the top of my head.I nodded."It's a gift," he whispered, and I had to smile.We sat there for a few minutes, and I soaked up his smell. God he smelled. ’ ‘Answer me truthfully.’ ‘I’d stroke away watching a video probably with a chick riding a guy with her tits flopping about as if they were possessed, why would I need to also listen to music?’ Lydia, who was undressing, scooped up the remote and pointed it through the doorway to the CD player. As the music started he said instantly, ‘Ravel’s ‘Bolero’, why are we listening to that?’ ‘Well Mr Engineer it’s apparent you don’t know everything. The music is superbly erotic.’ ‘Eh are you talking. Then the phone rang. It was Ty, and simply hearing the black man’s voice made her feel a sudden rush of guilt for some reason. She glanced at Jake, wishing he didn’t have to know she was talking to Ty even as she answered his queston about dinner. *** Over the next few weeks, Ty found whatever excuse he could to call or visit Heather at work to discuss his account or to discuss the new home she had reluctantly agreed to help him decorate. It wasn’t that Ty was a total creep who was constantly. While making out with Zack, I surprised myself and winked back. My breasts were kissed. My nipples sucked. My mouth explored by Zack's tongue. With my legs opened wide and pinned, my lover entered me with that same fullness I so dearly loved. It was the same but different this time.Conrad was watching us. I could feel the pleasure overwhelming me like never before. Conrad's eyes were glued on me as Zack started our ritual of sex. I never dreamed that being watch would make it all so much wilder.