Before it was alwaysspare of the moment. When she was with Chris, he would not stoop down togoing out to dinner with his special lady there. He loved ...being seenwith Amiee in public, plus it was so much better when she dressed upwhen they went out. The only time they would stop was if she was in themood when they walked past one. That still took some convincing on herpart for Chris knew there would be no chance of them heading out fordinner that night.Friday came and the meal was even better. I tended to dress androgenously. I would always wear a prettybra (I needed one day to day) and pretty knickers, but would dressconservatively at work, dressing as prettily as I could at home.I saw a leading Psychologist during my transition (I needed his letterto get my operation done) and he suggested a change in hormone regime to3 Yasmin tablets daily. That was a great improvement, within three weeksI had negligible testosterone (checked with a blood test), more energyand my boobs had grown. I felt the pinch of a needle in my arm and an immediate burning sensation took over. It felt like fire running through my veins. It ran through my arm and into my chest. It was a pressure—the weight of being crushed invisibly. I held in my screams, but groaned, deeply, like a wounded animal. A second subtle pinch entered my other arm, and the pain grew. I clenched my eyes shut. Tears spilled out of the corners. I bit my lip and began to thrash. In my mind, I was replaying memories of home: my. " You really like it when I'm Gwen, don't you?" Lover, I like you no matter what."After my makeup was off, we took a long shower together.Then we helped each other make breakfast, actually lunch.As we sat there eating, Kate asked, "When can we start doingthis all the time?" Eat breakfast like this?" That and spend every night together."I looked at her for a moment then said, "You know, it wasn'tlong ago that you got upset when anyone mentioned marriage.What's changed?" I've realized that it's.