Obviously anyone who looked in our direction could see what was going on but he told me not to worry I was not the first and wouldnt be the last altho...ugh my final mission was a one off just for me.He grew larger in my mouth and I admit to having an orgasm myself surprised by how quickly I had become a whore for black cock.Eventually he told me he was coming and he shot load after load into my mouth which I swallowed and the rest over my face which I then had to leave on my face all night , even. I licked again and again and more juice came out and I licked it up.I then stood back up and reached over and for the first time touched his balls. There was like a big marble at the bottom of the sack and I could move them around inside. I was very careful to gently and slowly play with them. That was just as much fun as rubbing his penis.I guess I ought to say that I was also surprised about the amount of hair growing around his penis. Lots of it above and some on the side and a little on. I'm a stupid trapped sissy whore who has no choice, Sir.. " I cried more as I admitted what I was to these men, and to myself, out loud, so concretely. "I love being blackmailed, tied up, helpless, and fucked by men I don't know and can't see.. Oh god.. I'm so horny not knowing where I am, not having any control, please don't let me go.."He grabbed my leash and plunged my face onto his cock again beore I could continue, using my mouth like a pussy. Tears streaked my cheeks as I did my best to. Some of these women are nearly strangers, while others are friends.One day my life changed completely. I took my wife to the doctor's office since she was feeling really bad and she was in what seemed a horrible pain. The doc had me take her to the emergency room. The doc came out and after running some tests he told me she had the dreaded disease and would be lucky to live another month. It had just gotten too far along and there was nothing they could do.I talked to her and we both cried.