Without her..."Emily picked up a napkin and wiped her eyes, struggling to keep herself together. She'd kept it all inside for the last three days, sin...ce she'd found out about Lisa's disappearance, but now, as she tried to explain to Tina what had happened ... So many bad memories. So much pain in her life and especially her sister's; it was all threatening to spill out of her at once."When did you learn that Lisa was missing?" Tina prompted the woman as gently as possible, her sympathy tempered. I thought before I resorted to the senna, if an anal douche might help.”“How long has it been since...”“This past weekend. I haven’t been able to, since. I was hoping it would resolve itself. Now I feel really uncomfortable.”“I can imagine. Do you want to go upstairs now and try it?”“Yeah ... I’m kinda desperate.” I held her hand and we headed to our bedroom. Helen spread a towel on the bed. From the closet I retrieved the douche bulb, a tube of surgical lube and the bowl. After filling the. "He smiled down on me. His face was shining."Oh God, I need you," he said."No, you don't," I said automatically."It sure feels like it," he said.I waited a bit. Was that it? No. In the movies he was supposed to move.But he didn't. He caressed my cheek."I heard a rumor that when couples do it, there's some movement involved," I said.He smiled. "I was just waiting until you were ready." Thought maybe I'd wait till tomorrow," I said. "Because this part feels so good already." It will be better. I’m above it.* She ignored the faint thought beneath her little pep talk.*liar…* One last deep breath and she felt the air in her center, below and behind her belly button. It was warm, tingling, alive inside her body. She was strong. She could handle this. She opened her eyes. He towered over her, hard as stone and just as silent. Her shocked gasp burned her lungs as it ripped roughly in and her knees locked, making her stumble painfully back. ‘Whoa, you ok there?’ He reached out to steady.