Endless, insufferable want drives me on, drives me from bed to bed, man to man. I am damned to be indiscriminate, forced to take you as you are, young..., old, wandering the night cast over your living world in search of a pleasure that will never come. Tonight, my wanderings will bring me to your bed, to find you in your fitful sleep and fill your dreams with visions of a Heaven that I will never know. You are lying naked and exposed, sky blue bed linens mussed and tangled in your legs, when I. I then slipped my hand down off her shoulder, placing it under her arm, my fingers sitting gently against the side of her large breasts. “How do you not have a boyfriend?” I asked inquisitively breaking the silence. “How do you mean” “Your beautiful Bex, you know you are. How come you haven’t found someone to settle down with? You could have the pick of anyone you liked.” “But then I couldn’t enjoy the single life. We are still young Mike. We still have a lot of time to have fun before things. He wasn’t that close with my sister either, if truth be told—and I didn’t want to be the cause of any extra trouble in that department. ‘I’m workin’ on it,’ he said. ‘May have to bring someone in from the outside. Not much talent in that way on the floor now.’ Got that right, I thought. I was leavin’ the office and standin’ on the steel platform outside the office door, high above the shop floor, and I could hear the sound of power equipment down on the floor. Someone was in early. I looked. Sunshine was coming through the window. Slowly, carefully, I disentangled myself and sat up, looking down on my sleeping giant. The fact that I was in love with this man washed over me like a tidal wave. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I felt giddy and drunk and alive and amazingly happy. But then the sadness and uncertainty began to gnaw at me, an empty ache in my stomach. How could I feel this much love for such a man? I didn't know the first thing about him. And more to the point, how.