I never wanted to be a cross-dresser (not thatI have anything against it). I wanted to be a shemale or tgirl - forlife - very quickly.But I was not-n...ot-not into guys-guys-guys. I still found women soincredibly attractive. I wanted to be like them and be desired by men,but ... guys were, well guys and girls were soft and sexy.Diary Entry: May 2003I went to a party that a couple of tgirls were having in [name of towndeleted to protect the guilty]. At some point, the sex started. Notme,. I sort of feel a little uncomfortableabout being a man right now." Well we don't want that because you are certainly a man and heading forthe top 10% but let's fix it. Let's pretend you're not a man for now,just for a while and pretend you really are a girl that way it won't beconfusing or nagging at your ego. You will eventually learn that yourmale ego is a negative anyway and this will help. So Ok from now on wewill just "pretend" you are a girl and see if that helps." Oh Ok I guess that. ”“You can walk out of the tub right now,” she said, attaching the digital camcorder. She opened the flip screen on the side. The red light flashed on. “If you don't want to do this, just leave. It's your choice.”I stared at the camera, my jaw chattering. Everyone would know I was filthy. My cheeks burned with shame. I swallowed as Clint, Alicia, and Melody walked in naked, his cock thrusting hard before him. It was so thick.“I'm ready,” I croaked, startled. All my friends would see this?. ’ Darrin stared at the young man, despair curling in his gut. ‘I didn’t know.’ ‘You’re so fucking selfish, Darrin. Did you even bother to consider Mickie’s feelings? How she would have to be the one to identify your body at the morgue? I suppose that didn’t cross your mind.’ The blond stared into the cup of hot cocoa, his mind tortured and even more confused than before he made the attempt. ‘No, I didn’t.’ ‘What the fuck is wrong with you, Darrin? What happened to the guy I met a few days ago?.