”I lay frozen in bed, knowing that the moment of truth was at hand. It was hard to admit to myself, and especially Bull, that I was going to be his ...cock sucker, or even worse, his man pussy. After several tense minutes of silence, I responded saying, “I agree with you Bull, I don’t think I can survive too many more beatings. What do I need to do to get your protection?”Bull immediately jumped down from the top bunk and stood next to me. His t-shirt was already off, and he quickly pulled down. Sancia sat there, barely able to focus, pushing spaghetti around her plate. Her father complained about a bad day at work. Her older sister couldn?t keep her eyes off her phone, and her mother couldn?t stop chiding her to put the horrible thing away and join the family. Sancia herself had barely any appetite, and felt like she had to force every bite down, each one hitting the pit in her stomach uselessly. She kept seeing those messages in her mind?s eye, the stuff they?d found, and she found. He told me I was cold, and pointless, and teasing him, and just a bitch, and on, and on, and on. When my roommate got home she found me crying my eyes out. She was like, ‘Girl, you’ve been making such a big deal about this virginity thing so long, but you should just get rid of it so it ain't bothering you no more.’ To my 19 year old brain, that made a lot of sense. So I made up my mind to get fucked that night.”“By your roommate?”“What? No. We went to a club. We weren’t even there for ten. I sucked his tongue between my lips, and let mine intertwine with his. With some reluctance we pulled apart – we were still in public after all. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into a back hallway and through a door. Chef’s office, not that he’d mind – it’s not like this is a first. He turned to me as soon as the door is locked. Before I could register what was happening he had me against a wall, my arms pinned to my side and his face only a breath away from mine. He looked deeply into my.