10 I felt a bit sorry for him, the guy behind was pulling up his pants, he shed the condom and threw it on the bed, then he went out followed by the y...ounger guy, I picked up the still warm rubber and looked at it, the seminal fluid filled the bulb at the end, I stared at it for a few seconds, that could have been inside me, would I have come if I had felt it shooting into me?, I threw it into the bin after tying it and put on my thong and skirt, I also put on my bra then decided to leave off my. ‘What would you do with that? You can’t just leave it standing empty for months on end. And your parents…’ He trailed off, his eyes narrowing as he finally clocked the expression on my face. ‘What?’ I shook my head incredulously. ‘You really haven’t been listening to a word I’ve said, have you?’ ‘Of course I—’ ‘No, you fucking haven’t!’ I glared at him, so angry now I was growing hot all over. ‘You patronising bastard! Just where do you get off, Drew Barnett? Where do you get off, thinking you. Next Day around 10 am I went to her house and all were happy leaving there, I did chat with Uncle, Aunty and all casually passed a smile to Aswathi also. They went around 10:30 am. I asked for a tea to Aswathi. She was wearing a half sari, which was not that normal in this part of Kerala. As soon as she went in I followed, she hugged me hard and started to suck on my nipple without removing my shirt.With her clung to my chest, I closed the door and bolted it. I walked to the bed room and. I never thought doing the right thing would lead to losingthe most important thing to me.She just left the room and stayed away from me for the rest of the restof the day. That is for the best, we are like fire and ice; we destroyeach other. I might even go back on my word and end this, although thatis just so hard for me to do.Day 13It got worse between us. Each day we get farther apart. Each day she iseven less of the person that I married, if she ever was that person? Ido not understand why.