They agreed that things had to change, they had to have more patience about sex and she agreed to come to his place.He had some things ready in his ap...artment. A gag to keep her from making the loud noises she always made because he wanted to do whatever he liked without much noise of mercy appeals and cries of hurting. He did not want any input from her. Silky soft bindings for securing her to the bed to give Silas all the control and also keep her comfortable. The largest and thickest of the. There are flights every hour, but you will need to book it for me so that I can get there in time.”After the rush home and to the airport, and getting through security, it was just as I got on the flight that I remembered about the dinner. John’s phone went to voice mail, so I left a message profusely apologizing about the evening and that I would see him on Sunday evening, but would call tonight if I had the chance. I turned the phone off and forgot about it.Strangely, I kept feeling better. I'm sorry I've brought you so much pain." "You were worth it. You still are. Just be my friend and let me love you, and the pain will be gone." "Okay. If you say so." I do." A day came when they talked about meeting. "Charlie, there's a real-estate conference in ----- in a few weeks. I can get away for three whole days. Can you meet me there?" Can I? Lemme see what's on my schedule--hmmm, no earthquakes, the Lord's not coming back, the world's not ending, I haven't broken both my legs or lost. The jumbled scribbles of my childhood,pressed into the grains. I try not to think about it, or at least not look atit. I always wrote. Nobodyknew what exactly what I was writing about. I didn't let them know, I didn'twant them to know. I wrote for me. But, it would have been nice to showsomebody, If I thought they'd take it the way I intended it to be taken. Tonight was going to be agood night. I had coffee, cream, enough smokes, and my Daiquiri's (whichhappened to be my current phase.) I had.