Impossible I knew, for he had taken my virginity. Could he be back again? My senses know it to be true. My body screams, but I know not in my favor. I... hate him for what he had done, but my body loves him for what he had done, many times since. I am sure he is here, in my house, waiting for me, wanting me, ready to spirit me away. My nightgown is wet against my leg. Why I ask. Then I realize I know why. My body has betrayed me. Once again the traitor. I am wet down there, in anticipation of him. "Looking back on it now, I squirm with embarrassment about the smugness and self-congratulation I was displaying at this time. It seems incredible but I really thought that I had the measure of FUCK, that if I managed things carefully and avoided any more silly mistakes I was going to get on top of it. How little did I know.Having been royally fucked Alicia was now, of course, safely under control and I could travel with her into town knowing that she would, however reluctantly, obey my. "Okay, Lyle. I understand. Please forgive me, I'm in a bit of a fog. I do understand what you've done and thanks, Lyle. I really do appreciate everything you're doing. Really. I'm sure that Shelly will also."Lyle hesitated. I sensed that he was concerned. "David, it might be a good idea if you came and spent some time with Millie and myself. I really don't think it a good idea for you to be alone right now. You need family around you. Look, at least consider it. Give my suggestion some thought.. I feel more attuned with the world then. Yet, I have always felt as if there was a piece missing from my life. I had never met my soul mate and I felt as if that person was what was missing in my life. Supposedly there is somebody for everyone. I was starting to believe that was a lie. My friends were into the scaring the hell out of each other on Halloween. This year it seems that it was my turn to be tortured. They decided that to see how much of a woman I really was. I had to stay locked in.