I’m fine. Really,”I tried to sound convincing but Ethan is a smart kid. “Mom, you know what I mean. I bet you haven’t had sex in, like, for...ever. You’re still young and beautiful. You should be out having fun. I’m not a kid anymore so you don’t have to sit at home to babysit me. You can even bring guys home, if you want. I won’t get mad or anything. I might get jealous, but not mad.”Jealous? “Ethan,” I asked, “what do you mean you’d be jealous? What would you be jealous of?” “I guess. A little place called ‘The Red Caboose’ motel. Each motel room is a decommissioned railroad caboose. It was about 9 0’Clock by the time we reach The Red Caboose and a summer storm had begun to brew. Thunder echoed through out the valley and the rain fell in torrents. Vanessa and I settle down. I booked a ‘Double room’ caboose with a curtain separating the halves and Vanessa heads into the back half to change into her night clothes. I sit on the bed and flick on the Television and scan through. I was very annoyed but I did what was expected. The dog lived outside on the back porch. He wasn’t happy about it but touch. My afternoons were my own. My fascination with porn had me checking every day. I suppose you could say I was addicted. While getting off felt good at the time it was sort of empty afterwards. That started to change one stormy afternoon. A clap of thunder that sounded like it happened right over the house had Rex whining in fear. It made me jump. I let him into the house. .. the cloud of helplessness were covering her ability to actually compute what she was seeing. And, so in no time the dark man had shed his cloth of and stood naked in front of one shivering, young Lifeguard.The knowledge hit her with precision: She was seconds away from the first Sex in her young Life, and that special moment, that special moment that a girl would carry with her until she died was stolen from her by a monster. She always would know that her first time had been a rape.She saw.