.. ?" Tell her, Laura," Cal said softly but confidently. Over the next fifteen minutes, Laura stumbled through an explanation. Every time Cal thought ...she was waffling or soft-pedaling what she had done, he worked her through it as if coaching a child."So you haven't fucked?" Jolie said when Laura's explanation seemed to be finished. "Did you blow him, Mom?" N... no! He... he's just done me," Laura stammered."We won't fuck," Cal stated flatly. "And this is not an affair of any kind. It's a. I spent many hours sitting in the dark and wanking, always hoping that a couple would come in and allow us to watch them fucking or even better to let us join in. Unfortunately this was very rare. I had once been wanked off by a kind bespectacled secretary out with her boss but most couples left afer a brief interval, leaving us guys high and dry. I had fantasized about taking a young lady to the Willow Cinema for ages but had given up hoping I would find a willing girl, that is until I met. I would love to hear the words ‘I want you to feel good.’ And what of these men who pass into the background noise of my head? Do they only wait for me to be weak and vulnerable? I care deeply and I deny not my love for the men I’ve shared my heart with. Mom taught me sex without love is a degradation of one’s soul. Mom, I really tried to love them all, but they couldn’t handle my wild heart. So if it’s just been sex, and all my unselfish gestures go to waste eventually, where do I turn now?. I was the first to get to my feet. I was collecting my belongings as as I walked to the door I said,“Let me know when you’re coming down here again guys.”That was it for me for the Thursday, I had a shower and went to bed.The Friday started out boring. I had to be at the university all day and I did manage to flash my butt and pussy to some of the students in my class and the tutor in one of the classes. As a result, 2 of my classmates tried to hit on me but I told them that I didn’t want to.