Elsie cooedand gurgled and gave me a big toothless grin. Damn, the kid knows howto sell herself."Ok Elsie, you take care of your Auntie Bianca, mommy ...will be backsoon," Anna teased."Ha ha ha," I said, taking Elsie in my arms, "but, thank you so muchfor taking the girls out today."Anna gave me a kiss on the cheek, rubbed off a little lipstick, andsmiled at me like she was proud of me. I'm sort of sorry for thinkingshe would ever use Elsie to get back at me. If Brandon hasn't been agood influence. I was naked. Unlike most teen of my fashion and persuasion, I did not contemplate suicide. That would only inflict more pain on the people around me, and would not fulfil my ambition. Instead I sat there, a knife in my hand, poised over the tip of my penis. That would solve all my problems, if that prophetic phallus were ridded from my groin. There were storied of people being given the sex of their choice when genitalia injured occurred. Then I could live the life I wanted to in peace, without. I felt my head spinning and as Stephy’s face came closer and closer to mine I froze. Somehow I knew what was going to happen, or might happen, but I didn’t try to stop it. Did I want it also? I guess I was curious. Even though I was drunk I could have turned my head, but I didn’t. She was my best friend after all and I felt closer to Steph than anyone in the world. It was like everything was in slow motion. Our noses touched first, even before our lips. It was like an electric shock to feel. "Great, I'll have everything ready when you get home. Love you," Jimmy said and kissed his mother briefly on the lips. He almost lingered longer but fear made him pull back and hurry out of the house.The first person Jimmy saw at school was Todd. He was the one person that he really didn't want to see."Hey Jimbo," Todd said out of the window of his car as he pulled up on the parking lot in his BMW."Hi Todd," Jimmy said, continuing to walk.Todd parked his car and hurried to catch up with him..