" "You mean, you stuck your finger up his ass?" "Uh huh." Mandy's answer was so nonchalant, it was as if I had asked her if shehad brought in the pape...r. "Baby," she said into my ear. "We did all kinds of things." My mind started to race. What had she done? I was about to ask her,when I noticed that her hands was busily at work between her legs. Her skirt was pulled up around her hips and her fingers were sliding in and out of her tight little pussy. I stared down, then up at her face. Mandy. She wore her dark brown hair short, like we all did and her ever-laughing eyes were brown too.I don’t remember exactly when it happened the first time. Might have been in the first month, probably some time in the second. It was coming up to the end of our watch, all clear as it had been every other night. The sky had been a bit darker that day, and it was coming up to sunset I think… at least it was getting even worse to be out there. We’d started lighting torches. I’d noticed Lillian shooting. If I swung that way, which I don’t, I would have in love with her… just like everyone else. We became friends because, like a bad stereotype, I was a total math and science whiz. I swear, I wasn’t just trying to suck up to my incredibly strict Asian family. Of course, that was totally part of it, but the other part was that I just liked numbers and equations and things that logically made sense. Channing was in all of my honors and AP classes with me, but she was struggling. I don’t think the. I did not understand why the breakup had to include Julie and Tawny, but they were determined to end it.Two days after her graduation, we watched Mandy's flight take off. Julie and Tawny kissed me good-bye at the front door of their sorority house. I could have had either again at any time due to their Sisterhood's pledge, but I finally understood some of what they felt.It was not the same and holding on to the pieces would have been worse than letting go.In July, I floated in Rachel's pool.