"I'm Neil" I said reaching out to shake her hand, but she wouldn't take my hand." Well I gotta go" she said, "sorry about breaking into your spot" she... said. I told her she was fine and didn't have to leave. " you can chill here if you want, nobody else was going to be here today" I told her. "Are you sure?" She asked" oh yeah I said". Ill keep you company. We chatted for afew minutes and I told her I thought she was a bum who was sneaking in and fucking it up. She told me that she was a. It was a good clean shot and a difficult one from that distance. I managed to just shoot the galoot in his hand. He'll live, but he's never going to be able to use that hand for too much anymore. I truly regret maiming the man, but I didn't have a choice. It was either that or let him shoot the sheriff in the back and in cold blood. I guess that's the biggest difference between me and Jack. Jack just does whatever it takes to get what he wants no matter who it hurts. I'm just not strong enough. So when I found out that they could help rid me of those feelings towards women I jumped at the chance. I’ve been so much happier since.”I cringed, “Why would you want to do that? Having feelings for someone is only natural. You got rid of part of yourself when you did that.”She nodded, “I’ve thought of that. But I was never happy.” She looked a little sad, “I thought doing so would make my father stay with us. He never wanted a daughter that was interested in another man’s daughter.”I tried to. " And Marcus doesn't?" Not for me. Nor for you, from the way you're talking." No... not really." She admitted. "Sometimes it would be so much easier if I were normal." You are normal." I'm gay, Shawna..." Right? And why isn't that normal?" How long have you got?" Damn — you need to talk to Marcus about this, you really do. I don't know how he does it — let's face it, he's a long, long way from what most people would consider normal — but he manages to make the differences seem irrelevant." Oh,.