However Marcia’s hysterectomy and oophorectomy procedure was more involved, even though it could be done as a day patient, it did require an anaesth...etist, but afterwards it was just like she was on her period for a few days, but only for spotting; there should be no other side effects. She would need a sponsor and even then there would still be a substantial, to them at least, copayment. Taking all this on board Marcia devised a plan. She would ask her boss to sponsor her and access her and. My parents were furious with me when they found out and told me I wasn’t going to be “laying around the house doing nothing”. They said I had to get a job right away. My employment prospects didn’t look good because I wasn’t qualified to do anything. I spent most of my high school years hanging around with my buddy’s smoking pot, getting drunk and talking shit. I heard about an overnight security guard position at one of the larges warehouses in the county. This place was like 30 football. "A guy has fucked you Melissa. It is officialnow. Tell me, do you like men more or girls, I mean like me, lesbians?"Something had changed within me and Susanne's questions did not seeminappropriate but in fact, we discussed my special evening until wearrived at the Police station.Walking up to the Station door she took my hand. "I needed you lastnight Melissa but I was also pissed at Lindsay's roaming, with a girljust out of school!"The Police accepted the certified check for ten thousand. A life that, that by contrast, is so different than what I have now. I can not hope for this to be as I would like it. Doing so would mean not considering you and your situation. So instead I attempt to get through the day as best I can. I muddle through. I struggle to maintain my composure each and every minute of my day. A day that drags on and on and gets harder and harder to get through. Each day I wonder. Each day I tell myself. I tell myself that this it is for the best. That it can’t be.