The friend who was like a sister to me was in surgery, possibly dying, and I felt like it was my fault.Tears welled up inside me, but they wouldn't co...me out. Since going into the nurse mode while taking care of Joyie, I'd been unable to function in anything other than the calm collected manner that mimicked Mom's when she's handling a crisis.The minute the detective was gone, Mrs. Adkins came over and held out her arms to me. When I stood up, she hugged me tightly. Holding me, she kissed my. ..” Slap snooze button again! “Zzzzzzzzzzz...”“Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…” “Oh fuck, I’m going to be late!” This was the way most mornings at the Shannon family started, but this would not be a typical morning. I was at the second floor, most of my clothes already on for school, looking at my watch as I stood at the door of the bathroom. I smirked. 7:35 A.M. I love how Terri exaggerates. School doesn’t start until 8:30, but I guess I could’ve been wrong about that. I can never really get on time. She had no real desires except to please her man. I looked at her and she smiled at me. She put her hand on my hand, ‘Tell me what you want from life. What makes you happy?’ ‘I don’t really know. The happiest I have ever been in my whole life has been the time I have been with you. I never realized until just this minute that I was really never truly happy before I met you. She stared into my eyes. I saw a tear well up in her eye and run down her cheek. I caught it on my finger and tasted it.. Either way, were about to find out. I could feel him lining his head up with my tiny virgin hole and terror filled me. I stiffened like a corpse while he held cruel eye contact with me. I winced as he found the right spot to slide in. If you dont relax, this is going to hurt a hell of a lot more than my little fingers did sweetheart, he said with mocking affection. I knew he was right and even though I didnt want to have sex with my Dad I knew I couldnt stop him. I tried hard to relax so that.