Then I saw this chubby older guy walking over to my car and I thought, 'Shit, I knew tonight was going to turn out like this. Well, I’ll just tell t...he guy that I am looking for something different.' He walked up to my window and I started to lower it when he walked right past my car then kept walking. About the same time, a truck pulled up right next to me and a hot looking dark-featured guy rolled down the window. “Hey Josh, how’s it going?” I knew right then I was going to follow this guy. Does it make a difference?”“Uh— well — uh — I don’t know,” James stammered. “You should have told me.”“I know, but it never came up.”“Right, I thought we were being honest with each other. You know you were keeping it from me,” James said with disappointment.“All right, yes I was. I’m sorry. I didn’t lie to you, I just didn’t tell you everything. I mean, I didn’t know how you would react.”“That’s no excuse.”“I know. I’m so sorry. I should have told you.”“Damn, if my mother ever found out — I. All sorts of halfremembered dreams started to flood my mind. She leanedforward to kiss me. I’d never given serious thought toCheryl sexually before, but as turned on as I wasgetting, I ignored my inhibitions and met her kiss. Itwas gentle and sweet, totally different from the wayguys had ‘kissed’ me. I began to think that I’d neverreally been kissed before Cheryl. She had pressed her lips lightly to mine and nowwithdrew an inch. Her eyes searched mine, their richcoffee. Now we have to let it play out." I walked over to the bed, pulled Jeanne to her feet and hugged her. Jeanne said, "Michael I miss you so much." "I miss you too Jeanne and in a month or two months or maybe six months you'll say that again and then I will know it's time for me to come home. In the meantime you have to fully experience life as a free spirited libertine. I fear that doing anything less than that could result in the eventual destruction of our marriage." "But you're a free spirit.