I had come to a decision. I wantedsomething up my butt. But I didn't know how to do it.Or what. I wasn't sure about how to do it, only thing Iknew was... in all the movies I had watched, the girls hadgreasy buttholes, so I knew I needed lube.I looked around the bathroom and found the body wash.I squeezed a bunch into my hand and rubbed it on myhole, trembling with excitement. But I found as I tried toslide a finger in, most of the body wash diluted in thewater. I needed something else. I pulled. The sound of laughter behind us caused me to turn. Both Charlotte and Kaila were looking at us with amused grins on their faces."Hey, you try it if it's so funny." I shouted back at them."Naaah, I'll just stay here, where it's nice and warm. With the SANE people." Kaila called back, lying back on her towel, with a final snort.The water was still cold, but I was getting used to it. I lowered my shivering chest into the water, allowing myself to grow more comfortable. It took a little longer than. Uss raat mene apne hostel m mami ko chodne k khayal se soo nhi paya. Agle din mene mami ko mumbai ghumaya or sham ko unko hotel shoda. Toh mami ne mujhe kha ki rahul aaj tum mere sath hotel ruk jao merko akele m drr lgta hai toh m andr ho andr pagal ho gya or mene bola thiik h mami or m hostel jaa k apne thode bhouth kapde le aaya or hotel jaate jaate mene ek chemist se condom or 2 viagra ki goliyan leli. Uss raat mene or mami ne bhar dinner kiya or hum hotel wapis chle gye.Meri mami ko raat ko. I never asked for this. But, she doesn’t seem to care. I was born this way and until a few weeks ago didn’t have the slightest clue. I could hate Han for his big reveal. The truth of what I really am. But, it’s hard to hate and love someone at the same time. It’s even more difficult than it is to hold on to my human skin. I could say I didn’t run back to L.A. like a scared little girl. But, it’s a lie. I ran, end of story. The truth is simply too much to process. I have a home, land, more.