I know how badly I hurt Jerry... how could I have done that to the man I loved?If I called him now, what could I say? How could he still love me? I gu...ess I was afraid of what he would say. We were divorced but I felt we were still in a state of stasis — with nothing resolved except for some paperwork. I could fool myself into believing things would work out. I didn't like myself much anymore!Mary came back from the cafeteria with coffee for both of us. The heat from the paper cup warmed my. . . I don’t know . . . companionship?’ ‘And what time will this companionship be arriving?’ ‘Seven o’clock.’ ‘And you need me to do what exactly?’ ‘Well, if you could stay somewhere for the weekend, that would probably help. Give them some time . . . uh . . . well, some time alone.’ Cynthia paused. She didn’t know where she’d stay. ‘And you need to have him awake, of course. Shaved up, cleaned up. You know, ready to meet visitors.’ ‘I suppose I could do that,’ she said. A thought occurred to. He stopped, hollered at me, waved, and motioned me down toward the roadbed. I went down, and he said he and his co-workers used to place bets to see who could see me naked and jacking my cock for them as they passed! I hollered up to him, and said next time, to call me on my phone, and yelled my number to him! He laughed, and said he would. That very same night, when I was in bed, my phone rang, and a voice said, " We're about a mile away, and come outside".. I jumped out of bed, turned on the. Uh, alright I said. I took a seat while the doctor took out a large wooden goblet that was usually what heavy drinkers to their ale in. She filled it with something that looked acidic which really made me uneasy. Here, drink this she instructed handing me the goblet. I looked at it with distaste. Drink it, youll need it she said. I took it down slowly. It was thick and tasted terrible but I downed it in a few gulps. Then, I was out like a candle in the wind. I woke up in a haze. I knew I was no.