By the time she got back to town she was dry. I spent most of my time in my room, feeling down. I already missed that special time that I had been abl...e to share with my mom. Now it was gone forever. They got back in town on a Tuesday, and Dan didn’t have a trip scheduled until the following Sunday night, so I didn’t have a chance to talk to my mom. My mom took Dan to the airport late Sunday afternoon, and when she got back home, she put the baby in its playpen and lightly knocked on my door.. ‘So, you think I’ve got some sort of sick idea that you’re an incarnation of my dead sister?’ There was a harshness, a cruelty in his tone that stunned me. ‘Pull the car over, Jeremy,’ I commanded him. ‘Pull off to the side of the road now.’ Shug slowed the vehicle. The tires crunched on the gravel of the shoulder. We stopped, and he put the gearshift into park. He crossed his hands over the top of the steering wheel, then laid his head on his hands. I began. ‘What you just said, that comment. I picked them up carefully, one at a time, sitting with my knees against my breasts, my chin in the valley between them. Television. I was going on television again, that was why they gave me fruit. I ate it slowly, rocking back and forth and staring at the wall.My first time had been very hard. I hadn't wanted to read the words and I'd refused. So they'd beaten me from the waist down with truncheons of rubber hose filled with sand. I hadn't been able to walk or even stand, but I'd been able to. Cynara nodded and he thrust into her, breaking her virginity and filling her completely. Cynara cried out at the pain, digging her nails into his back."Cynara, Cynara," he said worriedly, stroking her hair, "My little fool, why didn't you tell me this was your first time?" Why should it matter?" she said defiantly looking up at him with a single tear streaming down her face."I could have gone slower, been more gentle." It barely even hurt," she answered, though her words were contradicted by.