You taught me that organized religion was nothing but lies created by men to control others, but you gave me hope through the love of a Goddess that l...ove could not be controlled by anyone or anything. You taught me love, and so many other things that my second childhood was truly like being born again. I miss you so, so many things still left unsaid but I tried my best, and you knew that I loved you like no other before you. I want to cry but again it is my choice heaven or hell. I remember you. Just so you all know the trains in India have a first class cabin with 4 beds( 2 each side ). The train started and i had a good 15 hours journey ahead of me. After about 20 mins the TC came checked my ticket and then the attendant came (first class privileges) and asked me what i wanted for dinner and if anything else i needed. I told him the order for food and asked him for some ice and water( for whiskey which is not allowed on Indian trains ) but he agreed to co operate for a nice tip.i. Usne blue jeans or red t shirt pehan rakha tha jo uski khubsurti ko or zyada ker raha tha.doc ka naam farhan tha usne sheba k letne ke liye bola or us larke ko bola tu ek kaam ker bahar clinic ki light vagera band ke r ke chala jaa me inki sonography ker ke band kar dunag vo lrka chala gayaa. Tabhi sheba vaha et gayee.doctor ne uski salwar kholen ko kaha to usne nari khol li doctorne bina dekhe vaha ek kapra dal diya or vo el lotion uske pet per lagane laga thori der baad vo machune se chek. On the flanks were lines of dowan, some armed with rifles and others with native weapons. In the middle was a group of 'komarty, ' the chiefs and their 'marti' speakers. It was the full 'komity' of the Farnow with their officials and bodyguards.The old boys in the middle had dowan on either side carrying large parasols they held over their heads. The 'pamart' himself, the high chief, strode purposefully out front holding his official walking stick. As they watched, two dowan ran out in front.